You're even sadder and more queer than I remember. De evolve you must, I guess. I can't imagine how insane it must be for a 50-something with a scat/diaper fetish hopelessly trying to keep himself relevant within this community, or any community for that matter, who is repulsed by his very same fetish which he loudly champions.
Wut? LOL
To be honest... this is actually what I really love. It's this uh... like "Time Masheen" bushwa, like I love how people just make up these weird deranged little stories and renditions of how they think my life is and... it's really fascinating! It usually only works with negative emotions, basically "evil" if you like. Like if you're overly positive in a particular community then people never do this sort of "magic realism" bit.
If you use a female persona though it mucks it up. Like with Krysti it usually levels out to about half the group calling her like "The Salt Witch" and wanting to burn her at the stake... and then the other half want to make her their new "waifu".
With the Onideus persona though it's more like 95% hate and 5% bros.
I like that tho. Mass appeal has little interest to me, because it attracts people who aren't interested in your art so much as they just want to latch on to what's considered "popular". People like that annoy me.